Wednesday, April 28, 2010

The sound of a bird

Last week was a big week. The Zoo was great fun. The weather was warm and sunny. Myra had a blast looking at the animals. It was the first year she's really gotten into it. It was a great distraction. I need to get pictures up on here. On Elaine's birthday we visited the cemetery and Darin took Vi & Ashton to "How to Train your Dragon". We also took advantage to Dairy Queens buy on get one for $.25 blizzards. It was a fun way for the kids to celebrate their sister's birth.

Of course there were a lot of other stresses and activities to fill up the rest of the week. Saturday was the IHH Heart Mom Luncheon. It was great. Rebecca Cressman from FM 100 made me laugh...a lot!! The food was very good and of course Margaret Cardall did a phenomenal job speaking, sharing and relating to us. I feel so fortunate to belong to an organization in which I know, I am not alone in my situation and feelings of frustration.
(moms in attendance)

Paul then shared a few songs with us and even did a little impromptu music writing. One of the last songs that he shared was a primary song, My Heavenly Father Loves Me. It was a beautiful arrangement. As I sat listening to the song and remembering singing it at Elaine's funeral, I realized that it was almost 6 years to the day. Her funeral was on the 23rd - the day before the lunch. I'm grateful that he chose to play that song out of the many in his repertoire. I know there is still a connection to Elaine. That she still IS, even though I cannot be with her physically right now. It was a reaffirming moment for me. Thank you again. And thank you to Carolyn for your hard work in organizing the special day.

All is Well (Poem shared at the Luncheon)

Death is nothing at all,

I have only slipped into the next room.

I am I and you are you

Whatever we were to each other, that we are still.

Call me by my old familiar name,

Speak to me in the easy way which you always used

Put no difference in your tone,

Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow

Laugh as we always laughed at the little jokes we enjoyed together.

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me.

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was,

Let it be spoken without effect, without the trace of shadow on it.

Life means all that it ever meant.

It is the same as it ever was, there is unbroken continuity.

Why should I be out of mind because I am out of sight?

I am waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very near,

Just around the corner.

All is well.

Henry Scott Holland (1847-1918)

Canon of St. Paul’s Cathedral

Monday, April 19, 2010

What can you do for Elaine today?

Exactly 6 years ago Elaine passed on. In the morning we will enjoy time as a family at the zoo. What can you do to honor her? Donate to Intermountain Healing Hearts ( or donate blood at a local blood bank. Heart surgeries alone use 2-6 pints of blood. We love you!

Saturday, April 17, 2010

No! She's my mom!

(mom with Elaine)

It's my mom's birthday today!! You may not have know that, but I think it's a pretty great thing. I know that most people think that their mom is the best, but I win!
(mom with Ashton)
(mom & her siblings top: David, Donna, Ray Reed Bottom: Denise, Sharon, Sandra & Joanne (my mom))
It is alwyas fun to learn more about your parents as you get older. To become friends with them. They no longer need to spend all of your time together (hopefully!) telling you what to do teaching you. As an adult, they pray you have figured most things out. As always they are around to answer questions and give advise, but it's not the...brush your teeth, pick that up, do you homework stuff that one dreaded hearing as a child. Right now I think that is pretty much all my kids hear out of my mouth! ;)

(My grandparents with most of their kids (sorry Sandra). My mom is the one sitting on the ground)
I like being able to be friend with my mom. She is an amazing woman. Her life hasn't been easy, full of many challenges and obstacles - many of which she still battles every day. She has learned to look beyond them. To see the "bigger picture". She is so good. The most Christ like person I know. She is amazingly creative and involved heavily with her church service, as well as owning a business and giving back to the community.
(My dad, brother, me & mom on my wedding day)
Mom, I hope you know that you make a difference!! You make people happy and we love you. Thank you for your example and friendship. Happy Birthday! I hope your cake was good - even if you had to turn it upside down to eat.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Floppy Ears

For some unexplainable reason, my son has a strong fear of people/creatures with what he calls "Floppy Ears". It has been this way for as long as I can remember. It doesn't matter if the thing is a cartoon, or seems more life like. It doesn't matter if it is a good guy or a bad him they are all frightening.

Sloth from "The Goonie's"

Last night he woke up bawling and stressed out because he had a nightmare about Yoda and Dobby. He can never get Dobby's name right, and calls him Roddy - but that's another story. He was also obsessing about the fact that to him, they are both green. I don't know any of the particulars about his dream, but he sure was worried about it.
Thimbletack from the book/movie Spiderwick

Ashton really enjoyed the books The Spiderwick Chronicles. He would sit and listen for hours, which for a small boy full of energy never happens is unusual. Even when reading the books (there are drawings) he didn't like the Brownie.
Yoda from "Star Wars"

Maybe the thing that floors me about my child, is the fact that these little, mostly harmless, imaginary beings are scary and cause intense fear, but watching things like Indiana Jones, Transformers and Spiderman don't give him a moments cause to be scared.
Dobby from "Harry Potter"

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

It's April

Well, at least that's what the calendars say. I don't quite believe it. We have had way too much snow and cold weather. We enjoyed a visit from my parents and brother last week. Once I load the pictures, I'll have to post more about that. It was great to see them. It had been about 6 months. Yikes! We even took a day trip down to see the great grand parents, and the kids found an honest to goodness rabbits foot (with the bone to the thigh attached) in the back yard. Pretty gross!

Myra is so cute and calls the baby "baby buddy". We still have not settled on a name for this little guy yet. Boys are hard, and being #5 isn't easy either. Don't worry, he wont be nameless forever!

Now we get to begin the task of moving the crib into Ashton's room, setting up changing tables and cradles and pulling blankets and clothes out of storage. I have about 10 weeks to get things all ready. I hope it can be done!

In other news, it is Donate Life month. If you have not registered to become an Organ Donor, do it today! It is a quick and simple step that is important to so many!!